Saturday, March 21, 2009

Hectic week...

Must say, I really had a hectic week. The major reason being the absence of my team leader. He was on leave since Monday, because of the sudden demise of his father!!! Ever since he went off, I was awfully loaded with work. I work in a 2 member project, and with no onsite coordinator(thanks to cost cutting). That means we have to interact with the client directly.  Well let me make a point here, the absence of an onsite coordinator is a blessing to some extend as you don't have to worry about credit stealing, extra work and many more things like that. But as all the free things come with costly products, this blessing costs you a very very meager margin of error as you to interact with the clients directly. As my manager reminds me day in and out, everything you do is very crucial and damn important. The code you write, the documents you prepare and even the mails you sent are so very crucial.

And from tuesday, I had to do everything on my own. All the mails, documents and even the new proposals and ideas for the project. It was hectic. But trust me, I enjoyed every bit of it. What I enjoyed the most was "taking decisions" on project matters. You have no one to consult with but God. Trust me, I really loved it :)

This post is just to thank God, for guiding me through all the tough days of my life. Thank you for being with me when ever I needed Lord. I know that very often I don't live up to your expectations. Lord, am human and tend to make and repeat mistakes each day. But please forgive me and give me the strength to get through temptations each day. Because I know very well that "With you all things are possible............" :)

Thursday, March 5, 2009

Second Chance...

-->Ohh, this is me... I shouted having a glance on my snap in today's newspaper. But what the HELL is it doing in the death column?? Strange... One sec... Let me think, last night when I was going to bed I had a severe pain in my chest, but I don't remember anything after that, I think I had a sound sleep. Its morning now, ohh..... It's already 10:00AM, where is my coffee? I will be late for office and that bastard will get a chance to irritate me.
Where is everyone...??? I screamed. “I think there is a crowd outside my room, let me check." I said to myself. So many people..... Not all of them are crying... But why some of them crying... WHAT IS THIS??? I’m lying there on the floor... "I AM HERE" ... I shouted!!! No one listened though.

"LOOK I AM NOT DEAD" ... I screamed once again!!! No one is interested in me. They all were looking me on the bed. I went back to my bed room. "Am I dead??" I asked myself. Where is my wife, my children, my mom-DAD, my friends? I found them in the next room, all of them were crying... still trying to console each other. My wife was crying... she was really looking sad. My little kid was not sure what happened, but he was crying just coz his mom was sad.

How can I go without saying my kid that I really love him, I really do care for him. ??

How can I go without saying my wife that she is the most beautiful and most caring wife in this world..??

How can I go without saying my parents that I am what I am ... just because of them ?? How can I go without telling my friends that without them perhaps I would have done most of the wrong things in my life... thanks for being there always when I needed them... and sorry for not being there when they really needed me..

I can see a person standing in the corner and trying to hide his tears... Ohh... he was once my best friend, but a small misunderstanding made us part, and we both have strong ego enough to keep us apart. I went there.. And offered him my hand, "Dear friend... I just want to say sorry for everything, we are still best friends, please forgive me." No response from other side, what the hell?? He is still preserving his ego, I am saying sorry... even then!!! I really don't care for such people. But one sec.... it seems he is not able to see me!!!! He did not see my extended hand.

My goodness... AM I REALLY DEAD???

I just sat down near ME; I was also feeling like crying... "OHH ALMIGHTY!!!! PLEASE JUST GIVE ME FEW MORE DAYS..." I just want to make my wife, my parents; my friends realize that how much I love them.

My wife entered in the room, she looks beautiful. "YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL" I shouted. She didn't hear my words, in fact she never heard these words

coz I never said this to her. "GOD!!!!" I screamed... a little more time please..

I cried...

One more chance please... to hug my child, to make my mom smile just once, to make my dad proud at least for a moment, to say sorry to my friends for everything I have not done, and thanks for still being in my life....

Then I looked up and cried!!!! I shouted....


"You shouted in your sleep," said my wife as she gently woke me up. "Did you have a nightmare?" I was sleeping.... Ohh that was just a dream.... My wife was there... she can hear me... This is the happiest moment of my life...

I hugged her and whispered.... "U R THE MOST BEAUTIFUL AND


I can't understand the reason of the smile on her face with tears in her eyes, still I m happy....


Disclaimer: I got this as a forward and its not my work in anyway...